All Saints Episcopal Church in Chicago

Always Leftover

An ode to HBO's 'The Leftovers', and a sermon on Matthew 16:21-28

Matthew Zaradich
August 31, 2014 

O unfathomable God,

whose peace passes all understanding:
calm our anxieties,
strengthen our spirits,
teach us to persevere,
as we lose what must be lost.

Amen.

For those who don't know me, my name is Matthew Zaradich. Most people call me Matty. I've been a member here for some time, and I serve on the Vestry, as well as in a number of other capacities.

It's always an immense honor to preach from the pulpit of All Saints', where I've heard such words of truth that could bring tears to my eyes, and a quickening to my heart.

In pursuit of such a lofty goal, I'll begin my sermon by talking about a most hallowed institution: the television network, HBO.

In HBO's new drama 'The Leftovers,' adapted from Tom Perotta's novel of the same title, two percent of the world's population vanishes.

That's about 140,000,000 people.

Poof. Gone. Departed. Lost.

There is no explanation, no note left behind. There is no voice from above declaring those left behind as damned. All the leftovers on earth are left with is each other, and the agony of constantly asking themselves, "Why?"

It's an agony they are actively engaged in trying to forget.

The show's premise calls to mind rapture theology, the 19th century mode of religious thought developed by preacher John Nelson Darby. Based on esoteric readings of a few brief verses in the New Testament, Darby held that a period of tribulation will occur before the return of Jesus. This period will only come at the advent of the rapture— that is, the event in which the Hebrew God will mysteriously raise a select group to Heaven. Those left behind will face an intense seven years of trials, until the return of Jesus and his thousand-year reign on earth.

Rapture theology remains a popular theological view, especially in America, with many Christians looking toward books and films like Left Behind as probable versions for what lies ahead of humanity. According to a 2010 poll from Pew Research Center, 41% of Americans definitely or probably believe Jesus will return to earth by the year 2050. If we look to the popularity ofLeft Behind as an indicator, we find 63 million copies sold of a book that relies on the rapture as its centering plot, with seven volumes of the series hitting #1 on the New York Times bestseller list.

The Leftovers, which I've watched diligently this first season (each episode at least twice), has left me feeling haunted and anxious— I can't fathom losing so many people at one time.

But that's the dramatic trick at play on the viewer here. What's happening on screen isn't some event far off in the future.

We are experiencing the rapture every day. Every moment of our lives.

You see, we are constantly in loss.

Every day, we might lose something dear to us: a loved one dies, a relationship ends, we are fired or laid off. A plane crashes. A war begins. Children are murdered.

We're never delivered an immediate explanation, never given an answer that actually makes sense when we, understandably, ask "Why me?"

We are left bereft, questioning if we will ever feel normal again, whatever that means.

We're never in control of what may happen to us on any given day, and it's an amazing feat of the human psyche that we are somehow able to avoid thinking of this notion every waking moment of our lives.

In The Leftovers, we encounter a world where everyone is dealing with the same loss. This isn't apples and oranges— instead, everyone is dealing with the same raspberry God seems to be blowing at his creation. Encountering each other in this world, people are left seeing each other in new, vulnerable ways. Looking around, each person in the world sees the empty spaces once occupied by living souls.

The show isn't so much about the origin of the sudden departure, or even where the departed went. Rather, it's much more centered on the lives of those who are leftover.

In the Gospel today, I'm less concerned about Jesus than I am about Peter.

Poor Peter. I might as well say, "Poor Matty," for I would have had the same reaction.

This leader, this Jesus, this lover, this brother, this man, this savior, this hope, this everything: I've given everything over to him.

I need this to work out, because it's my final hope. My final hope of salvation. My final hope that this isn't all some cruel joke, this life. That this is worth something. That I mean something. That I am loved. That I exist. That I'm not dreaming.

But Jesus lays Peter flat— "Get behind me, Satan."

Such cruel words in such a tender moment.

And if you, like me, feel the sting when you hear Christ saying, "Get behind me, Satan," you're not alone.

Aren't you tired of being left behind?

Aren't you, too, tired of the struggle?

Why can't everything work out— just once?

Why can't this life be everything we ever dreamed it would be?

Why am I always leftover?

Christ tells us today, for the first time, what's coming. The world as we know it is about to end, and we will be left over.

Put yourself there.

It's a dark night, I imagine. The apostles are tired, and they've been traveling for a while. It's been an entirely new experience for them, these poor men of Palestine. They've given up the old ways of life— fishing, farming, laboring, tax collecting —to follow a man in what today might be considered a messianic cult.

They've seen miracles performed.

They've seen more of the lands around them than they ever had before.

They're popular.

This Jesus, this man from Nazareth, this amazing preacher, talks to them about God in wholly new ways. Makes them feel like they never have before. Gives them something they've rarely had before:

Hope.

Hope for a better world. One of justice. Where the poor are lifted and the mighty rich brought down.

But on this night...

On this night, Jesus seems to snatch that hope away.

"I'm going to die," he tells them.

"I'm going to be betrayed, captured, tortured, crucified, and murdered.

And once it's done, I won't be buried immediately.

Instead I'll hang on the cross.

All of this will happen.

Because it must happen."

"No," Peter cries. "No no no no, no more. Lord, we need you."

"Lord, I need you.

Lord, I can't suffer any more.

Lord, I can't lose anything else."

I'm right there with Peter. He's already feeling leftover

I don't need to believe in rapture to know that every day we're losing something. Every day we're leftover.

Every day we're left wondering, What's next?

We live in a world where Jesus will be crucified. We live in a world where it already happened.

We live in a world where it continues to happen every. Single. Day.

He was crucifiefd in Missouri, when Michael Brown lay bleeding to death in the street, in the hot sun for over four hours.

He was crucified in Palestine and Israel, as old men made decisions about the lives of women and children— and chose death each time.

He was crucified on the south side of Chicago when nine year-old Antonio Smith was shot, execution style, in his own backyard just last week.

All around us, all over the world, Jesus has been crucified.

Where was I when they crucified my Lord?

Well, I was on a run.

Well, I was on the couch.

Well, I was eatin' popcorn. Watchin' a movie.

My friends, I've tried to find the sunshine in the Gospel today. I don't think it's there.

And you know... I think that's OK.

Do I like what Jesus said? "Get behind me, Satan!"

No, not really. I wish instead he would have said "Sorry," to each one of the apostles. Sorry you have to endure more. Sorry you have to lose again. Sorry this has to happen.

But he said what needed to be said.

While everyone is looking for Jesus... I say give the man some room. Follow his advice today, because the people around you are slipping away. Every day your world is a little closer to ending.

Take up your own cross. Weep with those who weep, as Paul reminds us. Answer your call, and in the midst of all this damn heartache and suffering, cry out

HERE I AM.

I'm not here today to preach to you about how your life might be better tomorrow. I'm here today to remind you there might not be a tomorrow.

And for this reason:

-Hug those around you tighter.

-Love stronger.

-Act now.

Don't try to hold on, like Peter.

Instead, know it has to happen. Deal with the pain that is ahead.

Persevere, and make the Kingdom of God happen now.

Before it's too late... who knows what we might lose tomorrow.

Amen.

 

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Dear Friends,

Please mark your calendars for our upcoming Reality Fair on Friday, May 12th. Here's a link to volunteer. This wonderful event at Ravenswood School is essentially a 3D game of Life. The 7th and 8th graders pick a future occupation, are assigned a spouse (OK, not that romantic) and a certain number of children. Then they try to make it through a month paying student loans, taxes, and other assorted bills. My favorite station is the “Fickle Finger of Fate” where a student will draw a card and may receive money from a great Aunt’s estate or break an ankle and pay for an unexpected ER visit. It’s a wonderfully fun morning, designed to teach the kids a bit of financial literacy. If you can spare a few hours to volunteer I promise the event will not disappoint!
 
Today I’m driving to Indianapolis to be a presenter at Jennifer Baskerville-Burrows’ consecration as the next bishop of the Southern half of the state of Indiana. I’ll be back for church on Sunday and am very much looking forward to hearing our interim music director, Colin Collette, preach.
 
Following the service I’m going to take a week away to recover a bit from all things Holy Week and my mom’s death. Emily will be here and available to assist you with whatever you may need.
 
Looking forward to seeing you on Sunday!
 
All the best,
Bonnie

May 12threalityf

This year marks the 11th anniversary of the Reality Fair! On Friday morning, May 12th, RCS will bring this powerful learning experience to the seventh and eighth graders at Ravenswood School once again, and you can get in on the fun. Not familiar with Reality Fair? It's a financial literacy challenge where students receive a fictional job and a paycheck and attempt to navigate real-world monthly expenses without going bankrupt. We still need volunteers to serve as bankers, utility company reps, travel agents, car salesmen, financial counselors and more. It's a three-hour commitment you won't forget! 

To sign up, go to this Signup Genius link. If you have questions about the event contact Helen Poot or Jennifer Simokaitis.

To see Helen and Jen talk about the Reality Fair with Greater Chicago Broadcast Ministries click here for the interview!

¡Veinte de Mayo! May 20th at 6pm
 
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The 5th Annual Mexican All Saints’ Mexican Fiesta will be held from 6:00 - 9:00 pm on Saturday, May 20.  Our special guest will be Padre Bayron Chanchavac, Priest in Charge of our partner congregations Santa María Virgen in Xalapa, and their mission La Família Sagrada in Alchichica.  Also featured will be music by Mariachi Herencia de México, Margaritas and other Mexican beverages, great Mexican food, and a piñata! We will hold both a live and silent auction of Mexican crafts, a custom painting by Lori Mueller, and stays at vacation houses including AJ Buckingham’s gorgeous guest house in Guanajuato, Mexico and the Jones’ Lake Michigan beach cottage as well as numerous other enticing items.
 
The proceeds of the auction help support the programs of our two partner congregations. 
 
What can you do?
 

• Add the Fiesta to your calendar and purchase your tickets ($25 adult/$10 child) which will be available soon on the All Saints’ website!

• Donate an item, activity, or vacation stay for our auction (bottle of wine, special meal, a few days stay at your vacation cottage, etc.)!

• Volunteer to help on May 20 with setup and cleanup!  (You will still have plenty of time to eat, drink margaritas, and bid on auction items.)

• Take Padre Bayron to your favorite tourist site or restaurant in Chicago or meet with him over coffee to talk about the exciting things that are happening in his congregation. He speaks excellent English and is a thoroughly delightful person!

 

Please contact Dave or Karen Howe if you can help or need more information.
Thursday, May 11, 7am - 3pm
 
Since 1902, the Woman's Society of Winnetka Congregational Church has conducted a rummage sale on the second Thursday of May with all net proceeds awarded to Chicago area non-profits that support women and children. 
 
Our community kitchen and food pantry, Ravenswood Community Services, is one of the beneficiaries of this great event. This year's sale is on May 11th, 7am - 3pm. 
For more information, including lists of types of goods sold and media coverage of past years' sales, visit the Rummage Sale website
 
Click here to view the event flyer. 
Saturday, April 29, 2017 in the Parish Hall
 
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Level I: 9:00-11:30am -- Learn how to keep our children safe from sexual abuse in the church and in our community. Parents of children and teens in our congregation are especially encouraged to attend. This session is mandatory for anyone working with our children or youth (or hoping to in the future!), clergy, staff, vestry, and persons providing care to home bound members of our community.

Level II: 12:30-3:00pm - How can we sustain healthy boundaries among adults in our community? How do we prevent the misuse of power as we minister to one another? How can we work together to safeguard the more vulnerable members of our community from emotional and sexual abuse? This session is open to all members of our community who are seeking to live into the fullness of our baptismal vow to "respect the dignity of all persons." Those working with Tuesday night guests would especially benefit from this workshop. It is mandatory for leaders of programs that minister to adults, clergy, staff, vestry, and persons providing care to home bound members of our community.

Level I will be facilitated by Norman Linde, social worker/therapist who has worked extensively in this area and is a certified trainer for KGPS. Level II will be facilitated by Chaplain Jeanne Wirpsa, also certified by the Diocese to teach this material.

Please register by Friday, April 21st so we can have adequate materials available. For further information & to sign up contact Jeanne Wirpsa via email or 773-316-6936 (cell).

Cinco de Mayo Style- May 6 at 6pm

What you ask, is 'What's Cooking at All Saints?' It is a chance for parishioners to come together to prep, cook, and eat a meal, with both adult and equally attractive non-adult beverages. It is a chance for a small group to talk, to get to know each other, and to share fun cooking tips and hacks.

We are looking for 6-8 individuals to join us in the All Saints' Kitchen on May 6 at 6pm. Food (carnitas and more, perhaps) and beverages provided.

Please email Joe Wernette-Harnden to get in on the fun.

Individual Actions Towards Racial Equality

Volunteer Opportunities, Events, and Recommendations

(re)imagining: Racial Justice Summit Sponsored by YWCA Evanston/North Shore:


Thursday, April 6 from 6 - 8 pm
Friday, April 7 from 9 am - 4 pm
 
Unitarian Church of Evanston
1330 Ridge Ave., Evanston, IL
 
Goal: "To bring people of all ages and demographics together to deepen their understanding of their own racial identities, develop skills to work for change, formulate action plans and engage with others."

For Information and Registration, click here

"The Scottsboro Boys" at Porchlight Theater through March 12th
 
A musical production that is getting rave reviews, "nominated for 12 Tony Awards, and presented in the style of the notorious "minstrel show", this true-life story of nine African American teenagers accused and put on trial in Memphis for a crime they did not commit is one America's most notorious episodes of injustice; inaugurating a wave of social changes leading up to the modern Civil Rights Movement."

For information and ticket prices, click here

Suggested reading, non-fiction: 
Tears We Cannot Stop: A Sermon to White America by Michael Eric Dyson, January, 2017

This book has been described as "...a provocative and deeply personal call for change. Dyson argues that if we are to make real racial progress we must face difficult truths, including being honest about how black grievance has been ignored, dismissed, or discounted."

 
Recommended as a "companion piece to the film rather than a stand-alone book." One reviewer recommended "seeing the film first, and then using the book for meditation and revisiting afterward."

Volunteer opportunity: GROWING HOME "We have a vision of a world of healthy people and communities. Everyone deserves to have a good job, and everyone deserves to eat well." Since 2002, Growing Home has trained and employed and, most importantly, given a second chance to people with employment barriers. You may be familiar with their Wood Street farm in Englewood. Their farms are the first and only USDA-certified organic high-production urban farms in Chicago, and because they strive to also feed their community well, all their produce is grown, harvested, cleaned, and sold within a 20-mile radius. Read more at http://growinghomeinc.org

Volunteer opportunity: Non-profit Reading In Motion has successfully refined its mission over its 30+ years to help give kindergarten and first grade students foundational reading skills they need to start on a path for lifetime learning. They partner with public school teachers and have been extremely successful in making a difference in children's lives. Click here for more info.

 

We're running low on paper and reusable bags for our Tuesday night pantry. Please bring us your extras! 
 
We will be taking donations on Tuesday evenings, M-F 9am-4pm, and on Sundays during church services. Look for the bins by the doors. Thanks for your help!

 Sundays at 2pm

breakersbibleWe are very excited to announce that every Sunday at 2:00 pm, All Saints' offers something new at the Breakers - An Evening Prayer Service! Our first event was Sunday, December 4th, and went marvelously well - we had 13 attendees! Folks are very pleased that there's a Protestant service being offered in addition to the current choices (which are Catholic and Moody Bible.) The Prayer Service itself is printed in large print and in bulletin style with scripture taken each week from the Common Lectionary.

The weekly service starts at 2:00 pm, upstairs on the second floor Meditation Room, and lasts about 15 minutes. Please contact Paul Mallatt if you have questions, or comments at 773-860-4649. When you can, stop by the Breakers (5333 N Sheridan Rd) where the parking is free (for 2 hours), the coffee is hot, and the folks are friendly!

 

Jeff Lee
Dear Polly and All Saint's Kids,
 
I am writing to you from a meeting of the board of Episcopal Relief & Development in Bogota, Columbia. We are meeting here to visit some of our partner ministries with people in need. I have seen the amazing results of this year's bake sale (in fact, I'm looking at photos of some of the cakes - wow!), and you have reminded me that we don't have to travel to Columbia or South Sudan to make a huge impact for the good of God's people.
 
I am so proud and grateful for you and the work you do. You guys are heroes. Our friends in South Sudan will be blessed by your effort.
 
In Christ,
 
Jeffrey D. Lee
Bishop of Chicago

Sundays at 10am

The phrase Imago Dei means the Image of God. Specifically, the image of God as it is found in humanity. The image of God in us - it is what makes us spiritual people - valued as whole and complete. What does it mean to creatively live as whole people? How do we live in relationship with others - respecting and sharing one another's security and one another's discomfort?

Join us on Sunday mornings between services as we figure out together how to help one another take practical responsibility for living in this world - especially as racial and spiritual beings.

True - our time will be uncomfortable because it will mean talking about race, violence, personal helplessness, and personal failure. Also true - this will be comforting and supportive because it will mean getting to be honest, practicing together, and caring for one another.

Every week we will ask one another "What have you done in these past 7 days with who you are and within your sphere of influence when it comes to the realities of race?" the answers will be different for each person and it won't be a competition. We will be lifting up the everyday choices we make and don't make. Sometimes we will like what happens and sometimes we won't.

And - we will be doing it together.

The Middle Eastern refugees and immigrants served by the Iraqi Mutual Aid Society were deeply moved by the notes of welcome from All Saints. We shared them at our community lunch on Thursday, and now they will hang in our conference room to remind people of your warm welcome in the days to come. Thanks!

Peace,
Laura Youngberg

breadbakersSignup online to bake for a month

Calling all bakers! If you love the smell of fresh-baked bread filling your kitchen, please consider signing up to bake communion bread for our services. This involves a one-month commitment that you'll share with another baker, and you can do all your baking at once and add to the reserves in our freezer.

Signing up is easy, just click here for our page on Signup Genius and reserve your favorite month.

Contact Jennifer Simokaitis, or Anne Ellis if you have any questions.

Yard Signs Available 

Grow Community has created yard signs for anyone who would like to display support for our local public high schools. Signs and sign holders are available in the Reading Room.

 
 

 

Tuesdays 6:15-8:00pm 

 

RCS is looking for help serving and cleaning up after dinner on Tuesdays from 6:15-8:00pm.
 
If you're able to volunteer, contact Emily or Operations Manager Parker Callahan, or call 773-769-0282.

 

helloDo you feel called to create an open, welcoming, hospitable environment at All Saints? Do you like meeting and connecting with people? Join the new Hospitality Ministry! Members of the Hospitality Ministry will help the clergy and vestry create a welcoming culture by greeting new members, engaging new faces at coffee hour, and helping connect new members of All Saints with our various programs.

Interested? Contact Diane Doran or Michelle Mayes. Include "Hospitality Ministry" in the subject line.

Our new Associate Rector, Emily Williams Guffey, is enjoying getting to know everyone in our congregation. Help her put names and faces together by adding yourself to our online directory!

If you are a member of All Saints' and haven't already registered for the directory, please contact our resident web guru Jim Crandall at website@allsaintschicago.org and he will send a user name, password, and instructions.

Join the All Saints' Care Ministry! 

casseroleThe Care Ministry at All Saints' is a quiet one, simply providing meals after a new baby arrives, after surgery, during an illness. Because when life gets complicated, dinner is often the last thing on our minds--but sometimes a meal and visit from a friend is exactly what we need!

If you can provide a meal, give someone a ride, or run an errand once in awhile, please email care@allsaintschicago.org. You'll be contacted when a need arises and you can sign up to help at your convenience.

 

tinaParishioner, Tina Tchen, accepts Bishop Maryann Budde's invitation to preach at the National Cathedral Sunday, May 8. Click here to see the video.

 

Please consider supporting the restoration project of our historic building. To make a donation, click here

1883 Construction web 

This week’s stories of the bell tower: The beams and posts in the bell tower are being filled with epoxy and fungicide to prevent future insect damage and to restore their strength and integrity. Here are some photos of the work currently taking place. Everywhere you see white is where the post or beam is being rebuilt, restored and protected.
 
The blue hue in the photo is from the tarp surrounding the bell tower enabling Ron Young and his crew to continue working in the dropping temperatures.
 
 

Here is a collection of photos of the progress of our 1883 Project. Here is a collection of bell tower photos. Check back often for updates.


Sunday Service Times

8:00 am Inclusive Language Eucharist
9:00 am Holy Eucharist with Choir
10:00 am Children's Church School
10:00 am Coffee Hour
11:00 am Holy Eucharist with Choir

 

Contact Us

4550 N. Hermitage in Chicago, IL 60640 (Directions)

Phone (773) 561-0111

Email info@allsaintschicago.org 

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